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March 12th 2021

  • Elínborg Harpa
  • Elinóra Guðmundsdóttir
  • Hildur Hjörvar
  • Lenya Rún Taha Karim
  • Eva Sigurðardóttir
  • Berglind Brá Jóhannsdóttir
  • Gyða Guðmundsdóttir
  • Steinunn Ólína Hafliðadóttir
  • Tinna Eik Rakelardóttir
  • Alda Lilja
  • Aldís Amah Hamilton
  • Alex Louka
  • Alexandra Dögg Steinþórsdóttir
  • Allsber
  • Alma Dóra Ríkarðsdóttir
  • Amanda Líf Fritzdóttir
  • Anna Helga Guðmundsdóttir
  • Anna Kristín Shumeeva
  • Anna Margrét Árnadóttir
  • Anna Stína Eyjólfsdóttir
  • Antirasistarnir
  • Ari Logn
  • Armando Garcia Teixeira
  • Ármann Garðar Teitsson, Derek T. Allen og Jonathan Wood
  • Ásbjörn Erlingsson
  • Ásgerður Heimisdóttir
  • Áslaug Vanessa Ólafsdóttir
  • Áslaug Ýr Hjartardóttir
  • Bergrún Adda Pálsdóttir
  • Bergrún Andradóttir
  • Birgitta Þórey Rúnarsdóttir
  • Birtingarmyndir
  • Bjargey Ólafsdóttir
  • Björgheiður Margrét Helgadóttir
  • Brynhildur Yrsa Valkyrja
  • Carmen og Neyta
  • Chanel Björk Sturludóttir
  • Daisy Wakefield
  • Derek T. Allen
  • Díana Katrín Þorsteinsdóttir
  • Díana Sjöfn Jóhannsdóttir
  • Donna Cruz
  • Elín Dögg Baldvinsdóttir
  • Elinóra Inga Sigurðardóttir
  • Elísabet Brynjarsdóttir
  • Elísabet Dröfn Kristjánsdóttir
  • Elísabet Rún
  • Embla Guðrúnar Ágústsdóttir
  • Eva Huld
  • Eva Lín Vilhjálmsdóttir
  • Eva Örk Árnadóttir Hafstein
  • Eydís Blöndal
  • Eyja Orradóttir
  • Fidas Pinto
  • Flokk till you drop
  • Freyja Haraldsdóttir
  • Glóey Þóra Eyjólfsdóttir
  • Guðný Guðmundsdóttir
  • Guðrún Svavarsdóttir
  • Gunnhildur Þórðardóttir
  • Halla Birgisdóttir
  • Halla Birgisdóttir, Viktoría Birgisdóttir og Gróa Rán Birgisdóttir
  • Harpa Rún Kristjánsdóttir
  • Heiða Dögg
  • Heiða Vigdís Sigfúsdóttir
  • Heiðdís Buzgò
  • Heiðrún Bjarnadóttir
  • Helga Lind Mar
  • Herdís Hlíf Þorvaldsdóttir
  • Hjördís Lára Hlíðberg
  • Hólmfríður María Bjarnardóttir
  • Hulda Sif Ásmundsdóttir
  • Indíana Rós
  • Inga Björk Margrétar Bjarnadóttir
  • Inga Hrönn Sigrúnardóttir
  • Ingibjörg Ruth Gulin
  • Io Alexa Sivertsen
  • Iona Sjöfn
  • Íris Ösp Sveinbjörnsdóttir
  • Isabel Alejandra Díaz
  • Ísold Halldórudóttir
  • Joav Devi
  • Johanna Van Schalkwyk
  • Jóna Kristjana Hólmgeirsdóttir
  • Jóna Þórey Pétursdóttir
  • Jonathan Wood og Nökkvi A.R. Jónsson
  • Karitas Mörtudóttir Bjarkadóttir
  • Karitas Sigvalda
  • Klara Óðinsdóttir
  • Klara Rosatti
  • Kona er nefnd
  • Kristín Hulda Gísladóttir
  • Kristrún Ásta Arnfinnsdóttir
  • Lára Kristín Sturludóttir
  • Lára Sigurðardóttir
  • Lilja Björk Jökulsdóttir
  • Linni / Pauline Kwast
  • Magnea Þuríður
  • Margeir Haraldsson
  • María Ólafsdóttir
  • Mars Proppé
  • Miriam Petra
  • Nadine Gaurino
  • Natan Jónsson
  • Nichole Leigh Mosty
  • Ólöf Rún Benediktsdóttir
  • Perla Hafþórsdóttir
  • Ragnar Freyr
  • Ragnhildur Þrastardóttir
  • Rakel Glytta Brandt
  • Rauða Regnhlífin
  • Rebekka Sif Stefánsdóttir
  • Rouley
  • Sanna Magdalena Mörtudóttir
  • Sara Höskuldsdóttir
  • Sara Mansour
  • Sarkany
  • Sema Erla Serdar
  • Sigrún Alua Ásgeirsdóttir
  • Sigrún Björnsdóttir
  • Sigrún Skaftadóttir
  • Sigurbjörg Björnsdóttir
  • Silja Björk
  • Silla Berg
  • Sjöfn Hauksdóttir
  • Sóla Þorsteinsdóttir
  • Sóley Hafsteinsdóttir
  • Sóley Tómasdóttir
  • Sólveig Daðadóttir
  • Stefanía dóttir Páls
  • Stefanía Emils
  • Steinunn Ása Sigurðardóttir
  • Steinunn Bragadóttir
  • Steinunn Radha
  • Steinunn Ýr Einarsdóttir
  • Sunna Ben
  • Sunneva Kristín Sigurðardóttir
  • Sylvía Jónsdóttir
  • Tara Margrét Vilhjálmsdóttir
  • Tayla Hassan
  • Theodóra Listalín
  • Tinna Haraldsdóttir
  • Una Hallgrímsdóttir
  • Ungar Athafnakonur / UAK
  • Unnur Gísladóttir
  • Valgerður Valur Hirst Baldurs
  • Vigdís Hafliðadóttir
  • Viktoría Birgisdóttir
  • William Divinagracia
  • Wincie Jóhannsdóttir
  • Ylfa Dögg Árnadóttir
  • Þorsteinn V. Einarsson
  • Þuríður Anna Sigurðardóttir

  • Get yourself into a comfortable position under your duvet, pack in your toes and open your ears because now I am going to tell you the story of how I found myself … or not.

    Some say that the purpose of High School is to find yourself, others say the same about the world travels after. Yet some undoubtedly say that if you have enough money to travel the world then you possess enough privilege to not have to think about this. Or exactly enough privilege to be in a constant existential crisis where the burdens of financial struggles and life do not weigh you down as much as those who need to work harder to provide for themselves.

    Let us set the stage. I am an 18 year old teenager. Just graduated from High School and working at a summer camp, some would say in the prime of life. And life is sweet! But still not :/ Or yea sure it’s great. My diaries from this time are like a monologue from an icelandic movie, full on cliché and filled with contrasts on it’s best pages. Despite not containing any divorces, drug problems and not even sex.

    You can’t see it in photos from that summer but there were seeds rooting that had for very long lain in dry soil but finally received some liquid.

    (Maybe no surprise because I spent a big portion of the summer in the pool, everybody that has been to Reykjadalur know how it is :)) I was for the first time free of all qualms of life, didn’t need to tend to any studies, be around classmates that I never really got to know nor tend to social activities. Why did I feel like I was playing a role now more than ever?

    Jumping over a couple of months of feelings and hundreds of pages of my monologues until mid fall. I had worked up a sincere interest for trans issues. Read interviews and books by trans people and their self discoveries, watched piles and piles of youtube-videos and could not for the life of me understand why I had so much interest in this. I am just a cis girl??

    But these people felt just so real, I am just empathising with them because they are brave and real (there are so many problematic things about this way of thinking but that is material for another article.)

    The thing was that I was discovering a branch of society, a part of queerness that I had never really heard about, not to mention seen or communicated with. When I started reading about it I never had an inkling that I could connect with it personally, because I had never seen anything like it before. I knew nobody that had come out as trans, had a bunch of inner transphobia and all sorts of premature ideas about queer people that I would later chisle away piece by piece in the coming months. But after many months of uneven hammering a few things were clear to me:

    1. I could not continue to live in the role of a female.
    2. The role of a male did not fit me either
    3. Since I was not a woman and not a man I had no idea what I was.

    And that was complicated. Because even though it was a short while ago, circa 4 years, there were nearly no non-binary people in the limelight. I had no Idea of what I should do to figure this crisis out. So I decided to travel the world.

    Or not really the world, I went abroad and was away for a couple of months. Long enough to assess my own emotions and to figure out, away from family and friends, what I wanted to do with these self-discoveries. At this point I saw it as a crossroad, I could choose to turn to the right: come out of the closet in public, risk losing family and friends, having to constantly educate people and could discover later that it isn’t me 100% I (because again, I had no role models to show that you could be non-binary and an adult).

    Or I could go to the left: and just do nothing. Tell no-one, just keep living my life as a Woman, use my given pronoun ‘She’ and go to my ladies lavatory thank you and goodbye. Push it deep, deep down that there ever was a possibility of being anything else.

    Thank God I chose to go to the right, even though I was not sure about the choice long after the turn had been taken. Today I live an awesome life out of the closet, but it is still complicated that there are few role models. After so much time living a life that is not talked about in books, not acted in films and barely discussed in the news, I would say today that I am my biggest role model and visible person, as cliche as that might sound.

    Be somebody your younger self would look up to”

    I read this quote from a tea bag the other day. The tea did not agree with me and the quote even worse. It’s not necessarily that I as a child would not have looked up to the person that I am today. Little me would probably adore me now. A person that stands up for itself, tries new things and casually wears overalls.

    The thing is that meeting somebody like me now, a young non-binary that is not only out and proud in life, but blossoming, could have changed so much.

    But I didn’t and my thoughts were a bit heavy and made me loose some sleep. Now I am going to do my best to be a role model for the next generation of non-binary children, so they do not have to go through the same things that I did.

    Taktu þátt í að halda Flóru starfandi. Með því að styrkja Flóru útgáfu eflir þú jafnrétti og fjölbreytni í íslenskum fjölmiðlum, styður við nýsköpun kvenna ásamt því að verða hluti af okkar sívaxandi samfélagi.

    ** Kíktu við á Uppskeru, listamarkaðinn okkar **

    Finding yourself – the importance of diverse role models